Promote Your Inner Critic to an Inner Coach

Your inner critic is trying to help you. It just sucks at it.

I remember the day I decided I was unlovable. I was sitting in my bedroom at home, recovering from my most recent breakup and a string of misunderstandings with friends, trying to figure out why yet another relationship had failed. Why it seemed like I never got back as much as I gave. Why I had to work so hard to make friends and keep them.

I didn't have any awareness yet about autism, or about how neurotypical and neurodivergent people can misread each other's cues. All I had was a voice, and she was telling me, very clearly, that I was unlovable. My whole system was overwhelmed, and I dropped to my knees.

That voice had been with me my whole life. "You're not like those successful people." "Don't get too big for your britches." "Who do you think you are?" "You'll never be enough." "You're not good looking enough." "You're not ____ enough."

It was always one of two things: I was too much of something, or not enough of something. Too much or too little. Never just right. I was pretty sure I was a burden, and I believed it as a fact, not an opinion.

What your inner critic is really doing

After decades of working with people, and in my own life, I've noticed the same thing: we say things to ourselves we would never dream of saying to another human being.

So why do we do it? Because the inner critic has jobs.

The first job is to help you fit in, by making sure you never do anything "bad" or "wrong." She thinks that if she can keep you in line, you'll be worthy of other people's approval. What she doesn't realize is that she's doing it at the expense of you.

The second job is protection. Her logic goes: if I get to you first, maybe I can spare you the bigger pain of hearing it from someone else. So she hurts you a little to keep you from being hurt a lot. And, spoiler alert, the most painful criticism we ever hear is the kind we give ourselves.

The third job surprised me when I finally saw it. She was protecting me from feeling powerless. If I was the problem, then there was something I could do about it. On some unhealthy level, that felt better than believing I had no control at all. If I'm the problem, I have the power to fix it.

It's valid to care what other people think, because we're an interdependent species. But what we're really after is our own approval. We just got tangled up on the way, because of social conditioning. We go deep into that conditioning in Authentic Alignment. The strategy we built in childhood was well-intentioned and misguided.

How we ended up here

This is a big part of Authentic Alignment, the first part of The Multidimensional HumanTM, my signature model, A Blueprint for Your Most Magnetic Life.

We're in the emotional dark ages, or we're slowly evolving out of them. What I mean by that is a culture of confusion. We confuse fitting in with love and belonging.

Love and belonging is a fundamental need of our species. But to win the approval of others, we distort the love, belonging and self-acceptance we were born with. When fitting in feels like the price of love, when we think fitting in is the doorway to the love we need, we start comparing and competing. We conform.

And to conform, we abandon parts of ourselves. We say "you're out of here, you're too much, you're not good enough." We abandon, shame and banish those parts of ourselves, and build a persona we think will earn approval. The inner critic develops in childhood to help us cope with that deficit, and she becomes the enforcer, keeping the persona in place and the banished parts quiet.

Here's the good news. As a species, the pendulum is starting to swing. We're on the path to understanding the divinity of diversity, and we're evolving out of conformity. Confusion, comparison, competition and conformity are slowly giving way to compassion, clarity and confidence.

Your inner critic didn't get the memo yet. But you can help her evolve.

Meet her at the Table of Consciousness

(The Table of Consciousness is one of the tools we teach in Authentic Alignment.)

You aren't one voice. You're a team of parts, and every part gets a seat at your table and a turn to hold the talking stick. So I sat down with her and had a meeting. I didn't try to silence her, shame her or fix her. I listened to why she thought she was helping me.

She told me that without her, I would feel helpless. That without her, other people might criticize me. That without her, people might find out I'm not good enough. And she had one more fear: that she was the one who motivated me.

I want you to think about motivation like two little kids in kindergarten. One hears: "You have to be the best. You have to get straight A's, because you're not smart enough and you'll have to compensate. If you don't, you're grounded. Look how much better the other kids are." You can criticize a kid into success, and it often works.

The other kid hears: "Things are going to get tough sometimes, but I believe in you. I'm proud of you. You've got this. I love you." That kid also gets straight A's, and gets there without the fear.

Both are motivation. Only one is made out of love.

Her biggest fear, though, was that she wouldn't be needed anymore, and that without her job she'd lose love and belonging too. So I asked, could we try a different strategy? Then I gave her a promotion and told her why her new position would be much more fun.

She's my inner coach now. Some days she's a cheerleader.

Try this

Sit down and have a meeting with your own critic.

1. Listen from your wisest seat. Pick whatever resonates: your highest self, your future healed self, an angel, God, a loving grandparent, someone you look up to, a great leader. Let them do the listening.

2. Thank her. She has worked very hard, for a very long time.

3. Ask what she's afraid will happen if she stops. Then listen without arguing.

4. Ask what she'd rather do instead. Would she like to be an inner coach? An inner cheerleader? She's very good at pointing things out. Could she be your Chief Fun Officer?

5. Give her the promotion. Tell her why her new job will be much more fun, and that she's still needed.

A note: respect your own capacity, and always seek help and support if something feels too overwhelming or too activating for you.

It didn't happen overnight

Learning is non-linear. You don't go from zero to hero. So have compassion for yourself throughout the journey, focus on the wins, and let every failure be evidence of effort and bravery.

For a long time it was 90% self-doubt and 10% confidence. Then 80/20. Then 70/30. I'd get a stretch where I felt clear and capable, then crash so hard I decided it had all been fake.

It wasn't fake. It was expansion and contraction, back and forth. That's what installing new software looks like. It takes repetition, and a lot of failures, to build a new baseline.

What confidence really means

Confidence doesn't mean being perfect or performing. Confidence means compassion, awareness and clarity.

Even when the clarity sounds like: "I'm clear that I'm not showing up in my full potential today." Even when the awareness sounds like: "I'm aware that I'm being an asshole to my partner." You see it, you stay kind to yourself, and you change it. Awareness is the doorway to personal choice.

Where I am now

These days I rarely beat myself up. I'm very self-accepting. I celebrate myself all the time, even if it's awareness that I'm being ridiculous, because without awareness we can't change old behaviors. I don't mind failure, and I don't expect myself to be perfect. I compliment myself. I look in the mirror and love what I see. I adore myself, and I'm my own best coach and cheerleader.

Old patterns still pop up occasionally. But about 90% of the time I'm encouraging. My inner voice says things like: "I know it feels hard right now, but you've got this. Look at everything you've overcome. I'm really proud of you."

That mix of radical accountability and radical compassion is where self-acceptance lives. It's why, before we do any work in Authentic Alignment, we build an unshakable foundation of acceptance and awareness first.

If you're swinging back and forth right now, that's the process. Focus on progress and stop waiting for perfect.

If you'd like help, book a Private Strategy Session with me or join the waitlist for the next Authentic Alignment group.

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With enthusiastic appreciation and love,
Sandy

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